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just an update

salam. i know it has been few months i didn't scratch anything on this wall. My life right now is sooo much better than the past two years. ok. there a lot of changes happening in my life eversince. i think i am wiser now, cautious and motivated. Maybe because i am surrounded with good and high spirited friends. they all are high achievers and a kind of people that would make anything impossible turns possible. they make my life colourful and joyful. anyway, my younger brother Mat is preparing for his engagement. I wish him every happiness and hopefully Allah will ease his task and everything. I know setting up an engagement is not easy. we need to carefully scrutinize every single things needed to be done and we need to save our money for this.

the power of sulking

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i just passed my driving test. i'm so excited to drive when i got back in Sg. Buloh. i eagerly asked my dad to teach me until hi-way. this mid-semester break is a time for me to figure out myself back. Since today is Awal Muharram. i take this opportunity to wish Salam Maal Hijrah to all of my friends and readers out there ( i know there are not much readers of this blog..so lame..haha). back to driving story..my dad was reluctant to teach me driving..but I managed to make him teach because of the power of sulking that i have eversince i don't know when and how.. he said "dear, i don't feel safe seating at the passenger seat" i said "pa, so when can i be pro like Mat (my younger brother)?" then, sulking again.. even my youngest sister aged 5 y.o Nazrah said "alaa kak nor jgn la macam tu.." my younger sister Sofiya said "alala..touching plak Kak Nor nih.." then papa said "ok lah" then..i smile.

the soul of Ramadhan isn't coming yet

the fasting month is almost two weeks now. hopefully, i will be istiqamah in practicing terawih and all that i hate myself lately, all these mazmumah traits are emerging in my own self. i try to get rid of them..but as i pursue  doing things i wanted, i feel like i'm the one who is good enough in this world (feeling riya', takjub, obsessive about diri sendiri) why should i feel this way? isn't muslim should feel humble and taqwa to Allah.. i think i should change myself from now on, this fasting month should be the platform for me to get close to religion back.. Asma, please forget for a while about all the so called "success" that you wanted to achieve..if you feel takjub with yourself..you will be screwed..if Allah doesn't show you the azab in dunya, He will show in the akhirat..which one do you want? p/s : seriously..delete those mazmumah trait!

we are a survivor

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emotional derangement. so much money had been wasted. so much weeping. broken hearted. yes, just say it. just say it that we are a survivor. we are women made of steel because we fight like a man. we look tender from the outside but we are strong from the inside. why? because we survive break ups. we are not afraid about what people would say about us. because Allah is the most merciful, we know someday we will find a better one.yes, we are single now but that doesn't mean we would not have a soulmate.  we are single now because we want to prepare ourselves to be a better woman. as the matter of fact, we want to be a better muslim. when the time comes. InsyaAllah, Allah will put us in a better place. All we need is just to put a faith in Him so that all the bumps in the road we can swerve with ease. p/s : girls, you survive break ups. walk with pride bebehhh!!

forgive and forget

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fully satisfied. there, i said it. it has been a quite rough week for me but Alhamdulillah everything went on great. Lately, i have been thinking a lot about "forgive and forget". when you know that you already have some issue with someone. and you feel like you want to give a big punch on his or her face. But eventually you just don't do that because you know it's just wrong. you know that kind of act won't get you any better. Worse, it will make your life more miserable. So, i decided to slow down a little bit and ponder and ask Allah "where did I go wrong?" "what i've done to myself till it hurts so bad?" "why did i do this to myself?". As for me, like any other girl on earth, i always talk about my feelings to my mother to seek an opinion and advice. As time goes on, all i need to do is just to forgive and forget. because we are human and we make mistakes. All we have just to do is pray to Allah that everything will be ok,

trip to Bukit Kluang with my gangs :)

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After a week of volunteer work with Dr. Mokhtar we decided to have a picnic in Bukit Kluang. we woke up at 5.30 am just to fry the French fries, Erni cooked some nasi goreng, Ain made some tuna sandwich while intan made some "telur dadar"..haha..what a team! we didn't have to go far for holiday..Besut is just the best place for our tiny budget. many people love to come here because of the b-e-a-u-t-i-full scenery of whale-shape island and it's one of the most safest hill people can hike.. we hiked Bukit Kluang successfully!..(we're the champion!!..haha..we should have put some flag here..) the weather was perfect. i just love the sunshine rays throughout Besut district in Terengganu. eventhough some of us had a short of breath during hiking, it was worth it because we did it together..we laughed a lot and throw a lot of jokes while hiking. we had a blast! look! the whale-shape island! (the view from the top of the hill) this is soo b-e-a-u-t-i-full!! (another

lessons from Ombak Rindu

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cantekkan gamba nih..insyaAllah suatu hari nanti. i just watched Ombak Rindu just now..i know it's so yesterday but i can't help watching it. the moral of the story is..if you love someone you will have to sacrifice everything so that the one that you love can live happily lillahita'ala..we can hardly choose the right path for ourselves ..sometimes we hate doing something that we don't even like doing..but Allah knows best..He put us in that kind of situation to test us how much we stand on His track..how much we have faith in Him..He wanted to hear our du'a (prayer) or  moaning to Him so that He can grant our wishes. He put us in an adverse situation so that he can see how much we can stand to be patient because He will not test us unless we are capable to endure hardship. lesson no 2..do not seek love from a person that doesn't love you at all..please my dear..go find yourselves your own happiness..it's out there..n just be ready and prepared..because