kala kesedihan melanda diri

cik semoh dn heronyew..
(gmbr xdek kene mengena dgn entri)


banyak benda ak x tawu psl kehidupan ni
tapi ak rse ak x layak untok bersuare
umor setahun jagung berpura-pura seperti tahu semua benda
merasa diri ini seolah-olah betul belaka
itulah..
REMAJA

org asyik cerita psl penglmn die bercinta
buat ak terfikir-fikir..
org asyik cerita psl kehebatan diri sendiri
buat ak terfikir-fikir..
org asyik cerita psl kepedihan dia alami
buat ak terfikir-fikir
org asyik crite psl diri sendiri
pn buat ak terfikir-fikir

kdg-kdg..
ak rasa diri ak ni x layak untok mencintai dan dicintai
kdg-kdg..
ak rasa diri ak ni x layak dpt semua benda
kdg-kdg..
ak rasa ak hanya menyusahkn

aku tahu aku kene tunggu..
perhatikan sekeliling..
aku tahu aku takot
takot pd benda yg x pasti
aku kene carik smpi dpt
aku akn genggam sekuat yg mungkin
sbb ak tawu apa yg ada pd aku akn hilang
selagi aku mmpu aku akn genggam kuat-kuat
ak tawu ak x hebat mcm org laen :(

xnk jual cerita
xnk raih simpati
ak rse mcm BODOH
tpi kdg2 aku lemah
bukan senang ak nk luahkn..
bukan senang untok mencari sesuatu yg pasti
sesuatu yg boleh menerima 
the pain inside people never know

aku harap ANGEL itu akn ada
supaya dia boleh melindungi aku
memerhati aku
mendoakan aku
menyayangi aku
menerima aku
dn..
CINTAKAN AKU

aku sanggup tggu lama
ya allah..ketemukanlah ak dgn ANGEL itu
kuatkn hatiku
so that he can embrace my flaws by his halo
ya allah..hanya Kaw yg tahu apa yg berlaku pd diriku
hanya Kaw yg berhak mengubah segala-galanya sementara aku hambaMu
sedang mencari ..amiin :(

mama.
dia seorang saja yg tahu kelemahan aku kt dunia nih
weeeeeee..










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